say a lil prayer for me~ XD

Nuff said...

What if there were no hypothetical question?

i think this is one of the best questions i've ever come across. the beauty of it all lies in the chicken-n-egg property; but wat's so beautiful about this is that the "chicken" and the "egg" are in the same context - a question!! (pls tell me that u get what i mean... ask me if u dun)

now, let's take a step back and appreciate the beauty in this question....

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then i got curious about what answers ppl give to this question, and googled. Damn, i shouldnt have done that... bcos some ppl really got no eye for such literary brilliance... they actually answered it like the question it seems to be!!! omgwtf! *gasps for air*

check this out to get what i mean (or are u like one of them?!! no, no, nooooo!!! my world is collapsing!!):
http://www.answerbag.com/q_view/341212

or this
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20080904223332AATE7pV

*sighz*

*double sighz*

What's up with this world?!! has everybody gone numb?!!

ok, maybe i havent googled hard enough... my bad >_<

interview jitters.........

gg to have an interview with Merck Sharp & Dohme in approximately 9 hrs time... first ever formal interview... scary oooooo~~

Wish me luck~!!

Curse of the Laotian Village....

In the folklore of Laos, there is a village which carries a curse that affects foreigners who have left footprints on its soil. It has been passed down from generation to generation that of all the foreigners who visited, and managed to leave this village, only one would bear this curse, and carry it to his/her own grave. Little is known about this curse as the locals do not speak of it; only that the bearer of the curse would bear the mark of the curse, and be constantly "reminded" of his/her stay in that village.

I am the bearer of this curse.

The mark of the curse can be found on my right calf. It is, indeed, an indelible mark.

The "reminders" come in the form of bouts of fever which has recorded an all-time high of 38.9 degrees celsius... and last for a week... worst of all, they are like recurring nitemares that come every month... zzz

Norwegian Recycling rox~

http://www.imeem.com/people/ci2dEA/playlist/IvaU78Hl/norwegian_recycling_music_playlist/

check out the music from this artiste "Norwegian Recycling". His music is all about mashup of all-time pop hits.

i wanna learn sound engineering!!!

selfpwnt... hahaha

V I C S K Y - derren brown ftw~ says:
i go eat durian
bimbang: says:
dun fake
bimbang: says:
3 night in a row got durain
bimbang: says:
u think durain grow on trees ah
bimbang: says:
ya it does
V I C S K Y - derren brown ftw~ says:
lol
V I C S K Y - derren brown ftw~ says:
selfpwnt

trapped~~!!!

me n my frens went to sentosa on national day afternoon to make the best of the last few days before term starts. it was a whole new sentosa experience for me that day. i used to think that i've seen it all, but noooooo, i was simply stupefied by wat i saw. there were throngs of people when i got off the tram station. i could hardly see the shoreline when i made my way to the beach. to add to that, it felt like little india has relocated to sentosa!! i've nv seen so many indians at siloso in my entire history of sentosa outings... well, not that they took over the courts... but they virtually took over everywhere else... oops!

anyway, it was so crowded at the courts that our patience only allowed us to play 1 game. it was a complete fiasco, save for the larger number of babes... (muggy, u sux! ur worse than kel!!... hahaha)

so we left siloso for palawan to meet yf n her frens who were having ice cream near the bridge. we were thinking that nothing worse could be waiting for us at palawan. but lo n behold, we found ourselves right in the heart of little india!! woohooo!! (seriously, no offence meant...) and i was simply amazed by the view of the bridge... check it out!



i've nv seen so many ppl on the bridge before. apparently there was something going on in that area such that the cluster in the middle of the bridge simply refused to disperse.

anyway, we met up briefly wif yf n frens, only to be greeted by an evil concoction of sand n flour zzz... then did i find out that they were celebrating their fren's bday, who's a fellow course mate who din recognise me... (it muz be bcos she wasnt wearing her glasses then, like wat she said.... muz be....) sadded hahaha

(to be continued... i need to get some dota revision before sch starts...)

wassup wif this world?!!

juz witnessed a "quarrel" (by emo's standards) this evening over a stupid assignment by 2 ppl who cares too much zzz... i realised that it's always difficult to assuage the situation when one of the party cant express fast and clear enough... tip of the day: practise to speak wat truly comes to ur mind, and stop the quarrel. lol

it was quite irritating to watch but it gets really absurd on retrospect, and u'll start to laugh. someone calls it 逞强, which i totally agree... sometimes some things are best left to be done by one person... reminds me of the "roadblock" in "the amazing race" lol. there's no way a team can proceed until 1 person steps up to the challenge and completes it. seems like this scenario happens a lot in all kinds of drama serials, movies, and anime... some times it's juz best to let go...

on to another matter which disturbs me since a long time ago. i've realised there are quite a number of people around me who seem to be replicas of characters in cheesy drama serials... now i wonder if it's the scriptwriters who were able to capture the essence of such ppl into the characters of their stories, or it is the other way round - common people identifying with characters they see in the media who are similar to them in terms of environment, difficulties they face, etc., and re-enacting what they see on screen in their everyday life. i want to believe that it's the latter as it's known that the depressing personas u see are not their true character. and there is hope that the true character is much more optimistic and liberated. but it seems that the former holds more truth... which is rather saddening.

hopefully everybody can find their own little piece of heaven on earth someday...

so sianzzz...

arghh... today's been a very sianz day... so i decided to put down a few words in here... let the randomness begin~!!

candlelight dinner; nite @ the museum; wat cow; half-miracle; emoticon stealer; game over; vsa; pnd; stupid (oops) videos; videocam to transfer video; im so hot; laotian bacteria rox; sorethroat; panadols; seriously need to pack my table zzz; ops manning soon ftw....

ok... tat's abt all for that brief 2 mins...

and im still sianzz...

arghh...

i think i

the original korean version

the thai version

the chinese version

chao ta ~~~

woohoo!! sentosa rox~ for wateva reasons one can think of... the sun, the sand, the volleyball, and who can forget the babes hahaha!

anyway, beach volleyball rox~!! the adrenaline, the combined effort of all ur buddies, the wonderful rallies wif the other team, and the entertaining cock-ups... and the babes :P

i'm feeling so hot now...and i'm luving it hooOOOO~!! too bad sentosa would be sacrificed next sunday cos of *cough i cough d* :P

khoi hak (jalan... lol) sentosa~!!

addicted...

and the original jap version...

ktv ftw~!!!

5 more days...

going back to hell...

godspeed...

the signboard at the petrol kiosk

a man was driving his car on a cross-country trip from the west coast to the east coast. as he was driving on the highway, the gasmeter started to beep red. lucky for him, the nearest petrol kiosk was juz a few hundred metres ahead, so he drove in. as he entered the petrol kiosk, a signboard caught his eye:

"water free today, petrol free tomorrow."

wow, he thought, i shall top up my water today and put up in a nearby motel, then top up my petrol tomorrow. and so he did...

~the next day~

man:" gimme a full tank," he said to the guy at the petrol kiosk.

the man went into the mart at the petrol kiosk to get some donuts n papers. as he approached the counter to pay for his stuff, the cashier said:" that'll be 105 bucks, thank you."

"wat the hell? the donuts and papers cost 105 bucks?!!" exclaimed the man.

"oh, no sir, the papers n donuts cost u 5 bucks, the other 100 is for the petrol," replied the cashier with utmost politeness.

"wat? but ur signboard said 'water free today, petrol free tomorrow'," retorted the man.

"exactly," replied the cashier in all calmness...

the fox, the rabbit, and the tiger

once upon a time, a hungry fox went to seek help from a wise old turtle after failing to catch his prey as many times as he tried.

fox: "help me! i tried so many times already. but each time, the rabbit manages to escape from me... pls tell me how i can catch it."

turtle:"hmmm... go look for the tiger who lives in the mountain in the west... all shall be revealed."

and so the fox scaled the mountain, and finally reached the tiger's den. the fox crept in cautiously for who knows what danger lurks inside. before he knew it, fox saw the silhouette of the tiger. they locked eyes. a cold shiver ran down the fox's spine as he saw hunger in the tiger's eyes. true enough, the tiger leaped forward and started chasing the fox - it's dinner... the fox ran as fast as he could, and finally managed to escape alive.

the fox returned to the wise turtle's abode.

fox:"u sent me to the mountain, only to be eaten by that tiger? wtf?!"

turtle:"but u're alive in front of me arent u?"

fox:"that's not the point! i nearly died!"

turtle:"ahh... that is the whole point... now u know why u failed to catch the rabbit... be gone..."

"stayover" @ laikuan's

we're supposed to spend the nite working on the nyc video tonite... but guess wat? im back at home now. haha. anyway, thanks laikuan for hosting the get-together! it was fun indeed. and the heart attack game was deafening la... wtf. lol. totally amazed at how anybody can scream at the top of their lungs playing a lame card game haha. yuwei striked fear in my heart when she gave me that serious look while telling me that i might be suffering from some deadly bacterial infection. i was seriously creeped out... yuwei knows best... think i better do what she says before i get landed on the wheelchair for the rest of my life... fy's facebook account was conceived tonite at laikuan's place too. everybody was elated by it, including fy (i think) lol. took a cab back, n realised mac's is juz a stone's throw away from where fy lives. sl suggested mugging/doing stuff at mac's and go slp in fy's father's bed when he goes out to work... cant wait for the next house party haha...

i see fat people...

took a bus to chevrons to get stuff for reservice, only to find out that the shop is closed for stocktaking zzz... well, that's besides the point.

on the bus, it struck me that there are many fat people in singapore... wat a random n mundane observation u might think. but no, it says alot... in retrospect, i dun think i ever saw a fat person in the village... well maybe the village chief, oops. but u get my point. village lifestyle rox~!!

i suggested something really crazy during the trip - to have singaporeans sent to live in the village for a month each year to keep fit haha...

about keeping fit. i dun even think the villagers know the meaning of "exercise" and "working out". and i find it so cool~!! in the village, u get to work n "exercise" at the same time! games/sports are categorised under leisure/recreation instead of i-want-to-keep-fit regime...

send me back to the village~!!

home sweet(?) home...

finally back to reality... the dream which lasted for 18 days has ended... it was a beautiful dream... how i wished it would never end... but it wouldnt have been beautiful if it was an neverending dream...

like all things beautiful, this dream is beginning to fade away - into the deep recesses of my mind... but the essence of it's beauty would be etched in my heart...

i've realised saying goodbye is always the most beautiful part of life, anything and everything that happened before bear no weight at all when it's time to say goodbye...

the scene of departing from the village was really powerful; reminded me of the scene i moved back to my own home after living in my grandparents' home for the first 6 years of my life, and the korean movie "going home"... can u see the commonality in these 3 most impactful moments in my life?

what's worse?

doing nothing to help when u see a fren in need

or

seeing a fren in need, but nothing u can do to help?

life's one serious joke...

random thoughts...

it sux being me.

hardly anybody understands me, or catch wat im trying to say. maybe i should stop using double entendre. it sux when ppl dun catch wat u say, and that's why i hardly talk... cos it's harsh when ppl juz dun click with u. at least i try... sometimes.

i think im sick.

while ppl luv to get a piece of the action, i prefer to stand along the sidelines watching the action. i luv to observe; it's so interesting. how ppl interact with each other, laugh at each others' jokes, talking cock. but wat's more interesting to observe is the ppl who are on the sidelines as well, observing how they react to the action. it's so fascinating!!

i got a bad feeling abt this trip...

well i got bad feelings for a lot of stuff. but it's more scary in recent times, when all my bad feelings have manifested in one form or another. i pray that all goes well for project new dawn.

im feeling a tinge of sadness.

saw a super emo (at least thats wat i feel) post on someone's blog. the last section was really saddening. coupled with that kinda emo music playing in the background. i almost felt like crying... similar experience to reading that post abt the nsf who got mistreated.

sighz...

i think i have a weak heart, for being a such a stoic... for being in denial of wat i really feel... (wat a wimp! hahahahahahaha)

double sighz...

i should juz jump off the building and end my life now... (juz joking lol)

(crap... after reading thru this post, i realised it's still got so much of 话中有话. damn it.)

ingenuity

The Square Root of 3

I fear that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all thats good and right
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign
I wish instead that I were a nine

For nine could solve this evil trick
With just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun
As 1.7321
Such is my reality
The sad irrationality

But lark! What is this I see?
Another square root of a three

Has quietly come waltzing by
Together now we multiply
And form a number we prefer
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our moral bonds
And with a wave from our magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
And love for me has been renewed

here we are again...

less than 11 hours' time... i'll be set free... free from the torment of exams and grades. but i dun feel great, at all... no assignments, no homework, no tutorial, no stress... ahhh! cant bear to bid stress farewell... *sobz*

anyway, this paper at the start of the new day will be my only hope for an A... hope i dun screw it up... daniu kept giving me hopes of a cap 4+ this sem, which i seriously pray for too... it seems almost achievable, that is if others screw up more than me hahaha. let me see... A A- B+ B+ B+ B would do the trick... ah! i muz be dreaming hahah. maybe cap 4+ would come when i dun slack, play games on weekdays, lazing the nites away, propagating scandals (*oops) haha.

i always tell others not to leave a backdoor when attempting a task so that they will have more fighting spirit knowing that there's no way they can back off into their own comfort zone. but i've always been guilty of it, (well maybe not in dota, where fortune favours the bold, and a thin line separates bold from bodoh... but that's another story). always thinking if i play less, slack less, i'd have gotten better grades... i cant even recall once when i had gone all out for academic stuff. looks like my trusty brain (well maybe not so trusty when it comes to memory work) can only see me this far...

i shall rise from the ashes like a phoenix reborn~!!

Daniu pls make sure i get to treat u~!! haha

wassup with the weather?

it's been really hot n humid lately. and it really gets on my nerves, especially when a film of perspiration is perpetually on the surface of my skin. the perspiration's supposed to evaporate to cool me down, but it seems to be stuck to my skin, as though it's reached steady-state conditions. given the heat transfer coefficients i would be able to tell u the thickness of this pesky film of perspiration....

anyway, i've promised to blog abt the rain. i hope it rains, like... now. hate it when the rain teases me. Dark gloomy skies with heavy cumulonimbus clouds stretching into the horizon, makes one wait for the rain to start pouring down. but it nv comes... how disappointing.

i think i luv the rain. not the wussy drizzle, but the torrential rain. luv the sound, luv the smell, luv the feeling of it beating on my skin. still remember when i was around 5 yrs old, when i was still living with my grandparents, i'd stare out of the windows and watch the rain pour down onto the traffic below, soaking in the sights and smell of a heavy downpour. and then enjoy the sight of the flock of birds flying around and making a ruckus like wat they do every evening when the season comes after the rain has subsided.

one of the latest memorable experience with the rain was during ATEC 3 years ago. i had to be a relay station for one mission. and i had to spend one whole nite out on a hill. it was quite an experience, especially when ur alone, somewhat, in the wilderness. the nite sky was great. getting 'stranded' in the wilderness nv felt so good, especially when im far away from all the people and vehicles. it's juz my rifle and my radioset and me-eeeee-eeeeee~!!! hahaha . anyway, it started to pour in the deep of the nite, and it only got heavier as time passed. it was quite uncomfortable initially, but u get to enjoy it when u know u cant hide from it haha. wat twisted logic this is, u might think. but it's true. hahaha. and soon it was daybreak and i managed to take shelter in a scout APC when it passed by my location.

this experience reaffirmed one of my guiding principles in life: if u cant do anything abt the situation ur in, might as well make the best out of it. ^^ i find it really pointless when ppl bitch and whine non-stop when they get stuck in a sticky situation they got no control over. well, i dun really mind the whining and the bitching, but pls be useful. a gd example would be our favourite Oyster~!! ^^

feel good...

despite struggling to finish revision for exams, i've decided to carry on with giving tuition today; not for the money but more of obligation and hoping that it would help my tutee with his mid year exams next week... and things seemed to have taken a turn for the better today, at least thats what it seemed lol. his maths seems to be improving after making him do questions after questions. and it felt gd... i think he feels it too ^^

more positive energy for the exams weeeeeeee~!!

howling wind~

blow wind blow~ it's so windy tonite, heralding the storm that follows the bright red nite sky... this reminds me of the day i finished my matlab exam 1 year back. it was my last paper for my second semester, and it was held at mpsh 5. i felt euphoria after finishing that paper cos, for 1, i knew i aced it the moment i handed it in, but more imptly, that symbolic turning in of that exam paper meant the start of a long long break till the next sem started... like tonite, i was greeted by a crazy storm when i walked out of that airconblasted hall. yet i felt high and no amount of rain could have dampened my spirit, well maybe a freak storm would, but that will nv happen in singapore, will it? lol

soooooo looking forward to 7 may weeeeeeee~!!!

well now, back to enjoying the symphony of nature~!!

i'll do a post abt rain next time...

oh, before i forget. sirliang is coming back to singapore with the rest of the YEP team weeeeeeeee~!!!

-ditches video-editting to sirliang and vanishes into thin air-
*poof*

OT...

forced to mug OT tonite cos zx wants to borrow wh's answers...so drained now... hopefully i'll have the energy to mug tmr, erm i mean later in the day lol

ok time to go fight the zee monster now... and maybe some lucid dreaming :P

btw, i failed to finish all the 2125 papers today zzz... i sux

-sighz-

woohoo~!! 2 more days to go~!!

weeeeeee~!! it's wednesday~!! 2 more days to the first paper. im feeling rejuvenated after slacking the whole of yesterday, and sleeping so early at 10, strictly speaking, 12. yesterday was a fiasco, perhaps for the cn 3124 revision i had on monday. im confident of finishing all the past yr papers for cn2125 today yay~!!

breakfast first, then off to school~!! weeeeeeee~!!

"u r at ur thing again"

being "at my thing" seems to have different effects on different people, more counts of bad than gd (with a count of 1 so far, i think) it seems. y? i shall attribute it to ppl being too caught up in their own issues that they're unable to extricate themselves to look at things in a different (brighter) light. wat's so bad abt putting things into a new perspective?

wassup with people being so obsessed with pessimism? i shall call it the drug of the new-century-Singapore. everyday, we see ppl worrying/lamenting/(insert all negative verbs here) - indulging in pessimism. and wassup with ppl telling others to look on the brighter side of life, when they cant practise wat they preach?

-sighz- hypocrites and cowards abound...

as the saying goes, "if u cant beat them, join them". maybe i should quit "doing my thing" and embrace pessimism... ppl might, then, listen to what i say... for if one's existence does not cause ripples in the lives of others, that existence is ethereal... then, living a life of a hermit definitely beats living among ppl...

~~free ur mind, and the rest will follow~~

6 days to go...

mugged for 6 hours in central library... managed to go thru 2 x cn3124 tutorials weeeee~!!

got home and played 2 games of dota, and 1 round of pudge to reward myself haha...

read 2 chapter on engineering professionalism after dinner weeeee~!! (make that 3 after this post... or even 4)

this is so weird, im not feeling the usual panick like in previous sems. in fact im looking forward to exams weeeee~!! muz be out of my mind haha

more mugging after tuition tmr!!

zhihan sent me a video
http://youtube.com/watch?v=DK1IqfDsd1E&feature=related

that guy looks like the devil incarnate in that outfit haha... and that voice~!!! omg... i cant even imagine hitting those notes... i want his voicebox~!!! gimme gimme~!! hahaha

it's not the end... everything's juz beginning...

yay~!! finally, here comes the final day of the gruelling 13 weeks of lectures, tutorials, assignments, homeworks, labs, projects, & tests... glad that everyone (to my knowledge) has managed to survive this ordeal....

(wh dun feel so sad about the test... it's only 5%... i'm sure the solution's somewhere in ur big brain...)

for those who dunno, wh n i had this stupid cn2125 30-minute test at 11am today... he claims that he butchered the test... n i think he's in the doldrums... so now ppl, show him some TLC~!!!

alrite, now i have 7 days left to the first exam paper... at least i get to celebrate tonite weeeeeee~!! then it's "full speed ahead" for these 7 days!!

See the light, wh~!! break free from the clutches of stress~!! u need to become the master of the hollow in u... dun let it consume u~!!

TLC, ppl~!! remember~!! haha

GET HIGH~!!!

damn it... im feeling so high now... cant even concentrate on my revision... the best part of it all is that i dun even know why i'm so high... damn...

i say high-ness is a contagious disease... and it can even spread electronically too... how scary...

maybe a cold shower would quench high-ness...

Happy~!!!

weeeeeeee~!!! got back my lappy from it-coop this afternoon. 5star service from it-coop. it din even take 1 day. sent lappy in at 1530 yesterday; got sms to collect at 1045 today. WOW~!!!

seems that the mainboard is fried. thats y it cant boot up, and freezes, and all that nonsense i've been putting up with for the past few weeks...

this looks like a gd sign for days to come. Full marks for tmr's test plox~!!! hahaha

my feel good song at the moment~!!

(I'm Yours - Jason Mraz)

pissed....

pissed.

lappy crashed on me AGAIN~!!! made me spend 3 hours getting it up and running...

that's it... looks like i have to make a trip down to service centre to teach it a lesson...

pissed..

lost 3 hrs worth of mugging ...

pissed...

despair...

my brain seems to be failing me in understanding/applying cn2116, which sucks. this's like the first time that my brain has totally failed me; and i totally find that feeling of helplessness repugnant... haizz

"thou shalt not succumb to this nonsense!" speaks the voice in my head.

and i've been feeling soreness/pins n needles down my left arm for days now... got a feeling it's the onset of stroke. ha

-goes back to making sense of cn2116 and stop being lackadaisical :P -

wat a failure...

gave tuition today... greeted by a 10/30 sec 3 maths common test paper... haizz
looks like i cant teach at all... i'm beginning to understand why young kids need tuition. i've nv believed in having tuition; and till now, my view has not changed. why do parents get tutors for their children? the reason is simple -- they need someone to sit down with the children to make them study for 2 hours a day. actually, they dun really need to spend hundreds of dollars each month for that, if all they need is to get someone to spend 2 hours with the child at the table.

it's an inherent problem, which a tutor can't render any assistance to. if the hundreds of dollars really have to be spent, i'd rather the parents spend it on a counsellor. something muz be done to change the mentality/attitude of the child to studying. i think that's the difference between a student excelling in sch and another which keeps committing the same mistakes over and over again. it's not entirely bcos the A student is smarter, in fact, it's more of the attitude the A student has towards studies. one who does not have the drive to learn/improve, will nv get better.

another major problem would be the lack of fundamentals. sadly, my tutee is being told by his teacher that BODMAS is not good... thus not drilled into him (wtf?!); and his mental calculation and manipulation of equations are simply atrocious. he even needs a calculator to do simple calculations like 7*9... haizz... i wonder what the schools are teaching the kids these days...

i think this is a sign from god for me to start mugging for my finals haha... seriously... alrite, enough of me lamenting. time to get back to my engineering professionalism textbooks :P

never fails to amaze...

found this link in pam's blog:
http://www.straitstimes.com/ST%2BForum/Story/STIStory_226394.html

what courage... simply admirable...

totally dig this song...

KARMA

remember my please donate to "save-my-lappy- fund msn nick? my lappy really needs salvation after it crashed on me this afternoon zzz... and i lost all my stuff on C: drive, including my genes n society essay (which i've painstakingly churned out till 3am last nite grrr), and my msn chatlog (*@#!.. hahaha), and my pirated programs (erm... ya that includes my warcraft... no more dota wootz!!), and my vast porn collection (jking...) , and my ProjecT NeW DawN stuff~!!! (-gasps-)

if u're wondering wat am i doing online now wif my lappy crashed, yes, i'm in the midst of restoring her former grace... hopefully she can hold out long enough till after the finals zzz (if not i'll juz ditch ya... u hear me?!! grrr)

looks like i better nt spout/type any nonsense cos it'll all come true... ("oooh"s of wonder from the background)

pay attention to what i say...

this is getting really creepy... juz when i said i missed those flying arrows... the project t-shirt design had to go thru some changes... not forgetting my remarks on christianity which appeared on someone's blog, and who can forget the april's fool fiasco....

better not shoot my mouth off during these crucial times...

did someone turn on the AC?

hmmm... havent been blogging for a while now... better get some trash out to stop gibby from bugging me... oops. anyway, juz finished THE presentation for eg2401 this afternoon... (YES~!! 1 down, 4 more to go... zzz) it was such a harrowing experience, maybe bcos of the formal attire, and the stupid timer going off... at least it's all over now. time to get back to my genes n soc essay which i've put off for days... i planned to churn out my first draft last sunday, which failed; then this tuesday, which failed too, and now tonite, which, as depressing as it may sound, WILL fail too haha... (im so dependent on deadlines haizz...) btw, the deadline for the essay is this friday ... can't really ask for divine intervention since i believe it has happened too many times already, gotta save it for a rainy day ya?

anyway, it's the second last week to reading week. everybody's busy preparing for the finals. by rite, i should be doing the same. however, someone seemed to have turned on the AC, cos i cant feel the heat at all.. (zomg, im so screwed) i attribute it to the stupid projects, n labs, n presentation. it's been a hell of a semester... haha... and not forgetting the break from Project New Dawn. i think im suffering from it's withdrawal symptoms... kinda missed those flying arrows (from zhihan n jackie n fundraising), spams... i mean mass emails (mainly from fundraising again!! haha), n churning out posters late into the nite (more of waiting for sirliang n fengyi to cough out the content, while i give them electronic moral support... haha)

i feel so useless... cant seem to switch my focus back to my work... juz waiting for everything to click back into place. think that's y i dun commit too much... cos i know i wun be able to hold back if i take the plunge. (zomg, now i really feel like a loser.. ha) but then again, everytime i look at bimbang, it seems that im looking at my own reflection; constantly reminding myself to be more assertive so as not to live with too many regrets... i believe i've already had too many regrets (sry bimbang, no offence meant)... and i better get back to my essay before it becomes my next regret... (actually it's more of me becoming too poignant and sian to do any work... ha) (im so gd at giving excuses... haizz)

till next time...

(if u r having a hard time following wat i've written, it's bcos my mind is full of random, and, maybe, not-so-random thoughts... i think that explains the white hair haha)

(and if u catch me on msn, pls remind me to do my work... juz have to scare me by telling me how near the exams are... thanks alot!!)

oh... and i still got the YEP handbook to settle zzz... (eric!! ur writeup!! haha)
i better click the "publish post" button now to stop this electronic pollution haha... the longer i stay on this screen the more rubbish comes out haha

and kudos to u for managing to survive all my crap to make it here (the end)~!! haha

thai music...

went to support sirliang for his thai music performance @ yong siew toh orchestra hall this evening together with aravin, mehraj, gibson, fengyi, n wenhao. the music was splendid, n so was the "gay" dance... could see that the students performing deeply enjoyed it...

it's been a long time since i performed music; n watching that performance flooded me with the urge to perform again... missed those long practises, routine warmups, indispensable sectionals, n evanescent 6-pack. haha. missed those lovely ppl who sang together, the tempestuous (i mean... dedicated n passionate) music director, ms lim. missed putting on the attire, lacing up the black leather shoes, waiting in the backstage, walking into the flood lights, standing my ground, waiting for the time to perform...

wat a dramatic week...

this whole week was like a rollercoaster... if i wasnt involved, i'd thought it came right out of an overdue drama serial... here's one of the classic scenes... it involves our dearest Laotian stallholder...

yesterday was april's fool, and a prank was made by gibson on some of our Project New Dawn teammates. He told them that i was leaving the team due to some personal issues. Some bought it, which i'm thankful for, some did not, which doesnt come as a surprise even though it made me feel a tinge of sadness... anyway, i told gibson that it'd have been a more successful prank if the one leaving the team was sirliang...

and guess wat! sirliang might really be leaving the team after all... he's going to have an interview call from US for an internship at SILICON VALLEY 2330 today, 2nd of April. however, this internship would span from 11 May to 3 Aug... till now, the call hasnt come...

would he choose to leave for a once in a lifetime opportunity at silicon valley? or would sirliang choose to be with his newfound frens?

this all seems like a really gd april's fool joke gone bad... haizz

stay tuned for another exciting episode of "Project New Dawn - Ties That Bind"...

if he really leaves, i'll make a tribute video to our favourite Laotian stallholder... yes...

burning...

a note to april's fool-ers (u know who u r, dun worry ur not alone, take note of the plural form) :

i can feel the fire getting bigger... oooh it's getting hot in here... think it's time to stop adding fuel to it and let it burn out by itself.. before it razes everything to the ground... the vortex created by the fire dragged me to its edge... so scary...

time to do gd deeds to accumulate more gd karma...

humans are really scary.

S stands for ......

S-C-A-N-D-A-L

recently, i feel that there are one too many scandals happening around me... and i'm totally enjoying poking fun at the victims... i'm so evil muahaHA~!! no wonder all my frens hate me T_T... but i do seriously think that the victims are enjoying being poked at as much as i enjoy poking them :P hope this doesnt turn out to be bad karma hehe

feeling the heat...

yay!! juz finished the highly irritating F2 lab report... i'll nv wanna see that ever again...

now to move on to other businesses which require my precious attention...

juz got bombed by emogal... wat a time to choose; juz rite after i'm drained from that darn report... well wat's impt's that it made her feel less disturbed... and i feel gd that i've been of help ^_^... luckily im gd with bombs... for now, i've stuck the safety pin back into the fuse so we're all safe... for now...

looks like everybody's feeling the heat, in all ways that phrase can be interpreted... hope everybody dun burn out so quickly... can't wait for this crazy sem to be over...

alrite... back to writing the proposal for ms acm......

HooooOOOOOOOOOO~~!!!!!!!!!!

back again...

yay!!! i'm back again!!!
respite from all the graphs n tables zzz....
got a "jiayou" and a :) === YAY!!!

commercial break over... now we return back to more graphs n tables zzz

i need to sleep~!!!

after walking down 5 flats worth of stairs....

my calves are aching...
my eyes are shutting...

but i cant let my body do as it pleases cos i got...

1 super duper irritating big a$$ report...
1 super duper irritating graded homework...

ok back to work now zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

choices...

once again, i've managed to pull off a disappearing (non-appearing, to be precise) act this afternoon. even i'm appalled by how big an a$$ i can be (or maybe, that's wat i really am... haizz)...

rejection is such a difficult thing... can someone teach me how? if the current situation persists, i can jolly well go hide inside a shell and never come out. this reminds me of one of the questions mr mint answered during the retreat @ ubin.

Q: What belongs to you but others use it more than u do?
A: Name

imo, it's time... or more accurately, personal space...

if i have a choice, i'd be a hermit. hide in a place separated from this world; where i shall not be affected by people around me; more imptly, where the people around me shall not be affected by my whims...

if i have a choice, i'd rather not be remembered, not to have left footprints in the memories of others (well, at least footprints ancient enough to be washed away by time); juz like footprints on a newly mopped floor, irksome and needing to be wiped off asap. it's sad, but it's easy...

is this being kind to others? i think PT has hit the nail on its head... this is merely egoism...

ahead lies two paths...
1.be a friend, do the right thing!
2. be a man (fiend), do the right thing!

i can choose to be a good friend, turning up at all gatherings/outings possible (which means turning up as long as i have the time, regardless of how i feel abt it)... or i can choose to be a man, doing wat i really feel like doing, and risk losing friends (this might seem exaggerated to some... but thats wat i feel)... notice how yanzhi is conveniently forgotten when it comes to arranging gatherings? am i the only one who remembers yanzhi is one of us too? haizz....

Disclaimer: not implying anything by dragging yanzhi into my ramblings; juz to put across my point in a more substantial manner

one word. courage.

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One sad case...

fresh_meat made me read this post juz now http://sometimesifart.blogspot.com/2008/01/my-last-post-as-nsf.html... after reading the post, i was overwhelmed by rage n sympathy, maybe bcos i've been thru NS, and have seen injustice n exploitation to some ppl. there was this sudden urge to make this known to as many people as possible...

so i sent the link to some of my guy frens, hoping to share such a sad experience, and to find people who feel the way that i feel...

but after getting feedback from some of them, im feeling even more pissed... cos i see feedback like "haha", "it's a good one", "very well-written", "but he sure good at blogging even without his sight"etc.

yes, it is very well-written, but are we missing the point here? wat happened to the "i feel for him", "hope he's living well now" and stuff like that? Can ppl really be so detached after reading such a sad depiction of one's NS life? Are ppl too callous or am i juz too emotional? Muz only unfortunate events happen to them or the ppl around them that they start to feel for and sympathise with the victim?

jaded n cynical...

finally got some time to blog about sunday's meeting...

YaY!!! its week 8!! = no lab on tuesday!! and i juz gave 2 hours of lecture + 1 hr tutorial a miss this afternoon to get my dad out of jail, oops i mean hospital... haha... that'll bring my record to 6 consecutive hrs of genes n soc missed hahaha...


juz got up from my all-time favourite afternoon nap n im blogging all the nonsense that's happened yesterday...


went for project new dawn meeting @ SBL... did the usual updating... bla bla bla...
then came the most awaited segment -- facilitation!!
i learnt (or did i?) 5 things abt working in a group...


1. Act interested when someone's bitching to u abt their sucky life


2. Being an @$$ to them by spewing vicious comments at them


3. Psychoing ppl such that there's no more differing opinions to ur own


4. Reaching a consensus by being swift n decisive
(ie. announce that u've reached a consensus before another weak-minded grpmate decides to voice out their dissatisfaction with the "consensus" after u've juz successfully forced ur opinion on the previous one)


5. Last but not least, forget wat's the 5th thing that ur supposed to take back with u after the session.


so wat i found out during that session were:

- zhihan is going stockholm for NOC after this YEP and he's going to graduate together with his sis(s)

*boring ya? now something more interesting*


- there're ppl out there who (actually) think that pam is hot
(to pam: i think sirliang coulda been one of "them"... refer to "does this look familiar to u~?")

after which, we went for KOLO MEE along Killiney Road...
fengyi wasted half a bowl of rice...
(apparently, she luvs rice alot... cos she forgot that she ALSO wasted 2 wantans...)
pam discovered the true identiy of the mysterious "emogal", who's actually that cute little gal on the T-shirt...
(to pam: ur so freaking smart to have guessed it so fast!! props to u ya!!)

excerpts from remarks made by eric n zhihan (inside kolo mee shop):

eric: waaa!! our talented people all inside PnP bro~!!
fengyi (sry, i mean sirliang): u all 故意(purposely) put us together into PnP rite?
zhihan: no... it's destiny...
-strokes his long white beard-

and then, we all left n parted with full stomachs (not too sure abt fengyi) and ridden with holes from the crossfire of arrows during the meeting... haha

before i forget...PnP rocks!

oops! i did it again...

yes... i did it again... once again, i've allowed my inertia to get the better of me... totally gave clubbing a miss last nite... n now i have to take cover... for my frens are hunting me down...

im so sorry...dun hate me pls?... i shall not promise to make up to u guys cos that'll only be another chance for hatred... u can kill me but pls dun hate me : (

n the fren who actually likes me is turning against me too : (
my personal msg seems to be a curse... argh!!!

-hides back into that little dark corner where anything done, or not done for the matter, shall not cause ripples in other people's lives-

there, i shall exist, but not live... for living means leaving memories in others. one's life is what others remember of u... it's all about the impact u've made to the people around u. it's only when people remember u that u can proudly declare that u've lived ur life... otherwise, u've merely existed in this transient world...

wouldnt it be depressing if nobody notices u, remembers u, luvs u?

but wouldnt it be more depressing if u would only bring disappointment, hurt, n pain to people who actually notice u, remember u, luv u?

escapism? maybe... cowardice? perhaps... regrets? most definite...

oops... i did it again...

new theory~!!

i've realised something... i get more things done when im busy. the more commitments i have, the more work i complete... it actually pays to be engaged in all sorts of activities which eat up ur time!!

So here goes my new theory: if u r fighting to meet deadlines, go get involved in all sorts of activities which have got nothing to do with work!! (like project new dawn..., giving tuition, ktv, beach volleyball at sentosa, clubbing..., and visiting people at the hospital...)

also, if ppl can stop whining abt how much they've been lagging behind and get down to catching up, im sure we'll all have time for everything we need/wanna do!!

trying to change my personal msg...

i dun have any enemies ( i think...) but all my friends hate me... i shall start to change that from today onwards...

starting by:
not letting others feel that i'm building my happiness on their sorrows...
not poking fun at emogal...
not being so wishy-washy...
not being a wimp...

maybe i can start by confirming if im going clubbing on friday zzz

:(

Does this look familiar to u~?

was chatting with sirliang on msn this evening and he said he knows some vietnamese phrases which he picked up from the people in Laos...

here goes...

X00M says:
just like hello
X00M says:
byebye
X00M says:
u r beautiful
X00M says:
thank u
X00M says:
how much

does this chain of phrases remind u of something? hahaha

unbelievable!! Sirliang seems to know anything that u can throw at him... thai, laotian, vietnamese, japanese (almost non-existent... but still worth the mention haha)

-gasps-... wat abt bahasa indonesia?!!

Emptiness~~

How does it feel to be empty? and how does it feel to be full?

tried talking to my empty cup but it replied me with silence...

tried talking to it again after filling it with water...
it replied!!
yes!!
but what i got was my own reflection :(

that's emptiness i guess...

Do u feel wat i feel, or wat i dun feel for the matter?

Maybe u dun, cos u wun see ur reflection on me...

is that it?

woohoo!! another lame midterm test!! i'm so glad i din really mug for them hahaha... gotta thank the heavens for watching over me. now i feel so light that i can virtually fly. gd luck to whoever's still struggling (oops, i mean striving hard) for their midterms.

Lamest paper ever~!!

juz did the lamest midterm paper ever this morning... it was more like a tutorial set than a test zzz... now everybody's gonna get full marks~!! should i be happy or sad? well, at least it's only 10 percent...

hoping tmr's test comes with solution outlines too hahaha~!! lucky stars, shine on me!! can't wait for tuesday to end...

All in a day's work...

Alrite... let's see what i've done so far...

After blogging in this morning's entry, i started to put my mind to work... managed to clear 1 assignment YAY... revised cn3124 double YAY!... n slept thru most part of the afternoon booooooo...

enough abt me... let's see what interesting conversations i had with my YEP frens!!

excerpts from my various conversations:

Context - Gibson was asking me if i 'm going to watch Angela at Bugis Junction...

V I C S K Y -:
i'll juz experience it vicariously thru ur blog ya?
- gibson™ 2013:
experience wat?
V I C S K Y -:
angela lor haha
- gibson™ 2013:
it's diff
- gibson™ 2013:
it's like when ur nose is itchy
- gibson™ 2013:
u dun dig
- gibson™ 2013:
instead u ask others to dig
- gibson™ 2013:
then u juz see others dig
- gibson™ 2013:
whre got the shiok feeling

Check this out too:

V I C S K Y - let slip the dogs of war~!!! says:
oh no!!! the dri-fit samples are with u rite?
X00M says:
with fengyi
X00M says:
passed to her sis
X00M says:
they look about the same
X00M says:
but her sis more chio
X00M says:
haha

Fengyi, dun get jealous... u're not forgotten hehe

(some time later... from the same conversation)


X00M says:
i where got buaya
X00M says:
haha
X00M says:
aiyah
X00M says:
i think her sis chioer cos she can dress la
X00M says:
if fengyi can dress up
X00M says:
confirm better

Feeling better now? U r the chioest!!

What's new... haizz

today's saturday, not any other saturday, but the saturday before sch term starts again. and guess what? i've only got today to finish up all my revision n homework n assignments cos tmr is burnt!!! once again, i've managed to add stress to my life unnecessarily.... how 犯贱 can i get? haizz...

but ironically, i think i'm addicted to stress. stress, to me, is like drugs to a drug addict. stress pumps adrenaline through my body, invigorating my perennially relaxed self, giving me energy to do what i should have done ages ago. at the same time, stress gets me high, releasing me from my monotonous life.

so why get those useless n expensive drugs? GET STRESSED!! it's free, and easily available.

Here are the 7 easy steps to getting stressed:

1. Keep a list of things u have to do (make sure they are due at most a few days apart, anything that falls beyond that should go on another list in a week's time)
2. Stick it on ur wall
3. Take note of the deadlines of the list of things
4. (crucial step!!) Do not look at the list!!! (yes, u got me right, DO NOT look at it)
5. Go along with ur daily life (until u've almost forgotten what's on the list but still remember the rough deadlines)
6. Now's the time to look back at ur wonderful list
7. GET STRESSED~!!! (relish the feeling of adrenaline rushing through ur body!!)

easy, isnt it? go give it a try. i muz warn, however, that this is not for the faint-hearted. risk of heart palpitation and psychological breakdown is very real!! for more enquiries, u can easily contact me on msn, and help me get stressed by wasting my time on u!!!
(well, its not really wasted bcos i get to get a booster shot of adrenaline hahaha)
(maybe i'll do a post on what is the meaning of 'waste' in my next post)

see how we can help each other get high by juz talking to each other?

so why wait? become a fan of STRESS today!

KTV @ suntec~~

Today, i went to kbox wif sirliang, gibson, and huimin, and cameo appearance by ling. It was a freaking fun experience, especially when u get to listen to our very own PnP diva. Along the way gibson played papparazzi and filmed our diva in action with his camera. But huimin was too quick for gibson and managed to delete it before it can be disseminated to the whole world. (we'll get u next time huimin!!)

So we sang n sang n sang all the way till 7.30pm with many superstars, like Andy Lau, Stephanie Sun, etc., passing by our room from time to time. And i realised how much cock ppl can talk when they are high. I'm losing it...
(note to self: gotta learn to transfer my peerless talk-cock skills from text to real life zzz... try me n u'll know wat i mean haha).

When i went home, a theory began forming in my mind - all divas luv to stand on the couch while belting out their favourite numbers. This is my conclusion after witnessing 3 divas in action on 3 separate occasions. From today's diva, in my own words, standing on the couch makes her feel like she's on stage, on which she draws energy from the universe to mesmerise whoever's in the room with her angelic voice... (alrite, the drawing energy bit was made up by me... but u get wat i mean).

maybe i should stand on the couch too, to fully exploit my god-sent voice-of-an-angel. i can already imagine the whole kbox being swept of their feets by my wonderful voice, and me getting chased after by all my female fans hahaha!!!

When i got back home, i saw that "anal" picture on sirliang's blog; and i was like "wtf!" And not forgetting his $20.60 cab fare hahaha~!!! U shoulda stayed on dude!

Now, im waiting for EmoGal to update her blog... She nv fails to fascinate me with her penmanship and her emo-ness... u rox EmoGal~!!

Also waiting for gibson to update his blog... hopefully i dun get to see Andy Lau's hidden video on his blog. *gasps*

To gibson: do not even try.... u know wats in for u hahaha~!!