after walking down 5 flats worth of stairs....
my calves are aching...
my eyes are shutting...
but i cant let my body do as it pleases cos i got...
1 super duper irritating big a$$ report...
1 super duper irritating graded homework...
ok back to work now zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Friday, March 21, 2008
choices...
once again, i've managed to pull off a disappearing (non-appearing, to be precise) act this afternoon. even i'm appalled by how big an a$$ i can be (or maybe, that's wat i really am... haizz)...
rejection is such a difficult thing... can someone teach me how? if the current situation persists, i can jolly well go hide inside a shell and never come out. this reminds me of one of the questions mr mint answered during the retreat @ ubin.
Q: What belongs to you but others use it more than u do?
A: Name
imo, it's time... or more accurately, personal space...
if i have a choice, i'd be a hermit. hide in a place separated from this world; where i shall not be affected by people around me; more imptly, where the people around me shall not be affected by my whims...
if i have a choice, i'd rather not be remembered, not to have left footprints in the memories of others (well, at least footprints ancient enough to be washed away by time); juz like footprints on a newly mopped floor, irksome and needing to be wiped off asap. it's sad, but it's easy...
is this being kind to others? i think PT has hit the nail on its head... this is merely egoism...
ahead lies two paths...
1.be a friend, do the right thing!
2. be a man (fiend), do the right thing!
i can choose to be a good friend, turning up at all gatherings/outings possible (which means turning up as long as i have the time, regardless of how i feel abt it)... or i can choose to be a man, doing wat i really feel like doing, and risk losing friends (this might seem exaggerated to some... but thats wat i feel)... notice how yanzhi is conveniently forgotten when it comes to arranging gatherings? am i the only one who remembers yanzhi is one of us too? haizz....
Disclaimer: not implying anything by dragging yanzhi into my ramblings; juz to put across my point in a more substantial manner
one word. courage.
rejection is such a difficult thing... can someone teach me how? if the current situation persists, i can jolly well go hide inside a shell and never come out. this reminds me of one of the questions mr mint answered during the retreat @ ubin.
Q: What belongs to you but others use it more than u do?
A: Name
imo, it's time... or more accurately, personal space...
if i have a choice, i'd be a hermit. hide in a place separated from this world; where i shall not be affected by people around me; more imptly, where the people around me shall not be affected by my whims...
if i have a choice, i'd rather not be remembered, not to have left footprints in the memories of others (well, at least footprints ancient enough to be washed away by time); juz like footprints on a newly mopped floor, irksome and needing to be wiped off asap. it's sad, but it's easy...
is this being kind to others? i think PT has hit the nail on its head... this is merely egoism...
ahead lies two paths...
1.be a friend, do the right thing!
2. be a man (fiend), do the right thing!
i can choose to be a good friend, turning up at all gatherings/outings possible (which means turning up as long as i have the time, regardless of how i feel abt it)... or i can choose to be a man, doing wat i really feel like doing, and risk losing friends (this might seem exaggerated to some... but thats wat i feel)... notice how yanzhi is conveniently forgotten when it comes to arranging gatherings? am i the only one who remembers yanzhi is one of us too? haizz....
Disclaimer: not implying anything by dragging yanzhi into my ramblings; juz to put across my point in a more substantial manner
one word. courage.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
T-shirt for a Good Cause~!!
harlow ppl~!! i bring to u my YEP (Youth Expedition Project) "Project New Dawn '08" designer T-shirts~!! they are going for SGD12 a piece, or SGD10 a piece if u purchase more than 1~!!
r u a big fan of designer T-shirts? r u looking for new couplewear for your next date? look no further... get found walking down the streets in these matching designs, and feel good knowing that u've played your part in making this world a better place~!! Make these limited edition T-shirt yours today~!!
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Friday, March 14, 2008
One sad case...
fresh_meat made me read this post juz now http://sometimesifart.blogspot.com/2008/01/my-last-post-as-nsf.html... after reading the post, i was overwhelmed by rage n sympathy, maybe bcos i've been thru NS, and have seen injustice n exploitation to some ppl. there was this sudden urge to make this known to as many people as possible...
so i sent the link to some of my guy frens, hoping to share such a sad experience, and to find people who feel the way that i feel...
but after getting feedback from some of them, im feeling even more pissed... cos i see feedback like "haha", "it's a good one", "very well-written", "but he sure good at blogging even without his sight"etc.
yes, it is very well-written, but are we missing the point here? wat happened to the "i feel for him", "hope he's living well now" and stuff like that? Can ppl really be so detached after reading such a sad depiction of one's NS life? Are ppl too callous or am i juz too emotional? Muz only unfortunate events happen to them or the ppl around them that they start to feel for and sympathise with the victim?
jaded n cynical...
so i sent the link to some of my guy frens, hoping to share such a sad experience, and to find people who feel the way that i feel...
but after getting feedback from some of them, im feeling even more pissed... cos i see feedback like "haha", "it's a good one", "very well-written", "but he sure good at blogging even without his sight"etc.
yes, it is very well-written, but are we missing the point here? wat happened to the "i feel for him", "hope he's living well now" and stuff like that? Can ppl really be so detached after reading such a sad depiction of one's NS life? Are ppl too callous or am i juz too emotional? Muz only unfortunate events happen to them or the ppl around them that they start to feel for and sympathise with the victim?
jaded n cynical...
Monday, March 10, 2008
finally got some time to blog about sunday's meeting...
YaY!!! its week 8!! = no lab on tuesday!! and i juz gave 2 hours of lecture + 1 hr tutorial a miss this afternoon to get my dad out of jail, oops i mean hospital... haha... that'll bring my record to 6 consecutive hrs of genes n soc missed hahaha...
juz got up from my all-time favourite afternoon nap n im blogging all the nonsense that's happened yesterday...
went for project new dawn meeting @ SBL... did the usual updating... bla bla bla...
then came the most awaited segment -- facilitation!!
i learnt (or did i?) 5 things abt working in a group...
1. Act interested when someone's bitching to u abt their sucky life
2. Being an @$$ to them by spewing vicious comments at them
3. Psychoing ppl such that there's no more differing opinions to ur own
4. Reaching a consensus by being swift n decisive
(ie. announce that u've reached a consensus before another weak-minded grpmate decides to voice out their dissatisfaction with the "consensus" after u've juz successfully forced ur opinion on the previous one)
5. Last but not least, forget wat's the 5th thing that ur supposed to take back with u after the session.
so wat i found out during that session were:
- zhihan is going stockholm for NOC after this YEP and he's going to graduate together with his sis(s)
*boring ya? now something more interesting*
- there're ppl out there who (actually) think that pam is hot
(to pam: i think sirliang coulda been one of "them"... refer to "does this look familiar to u~?")
after which, we went for KOLO MEE along Killiney Road...
fengyi wasted half a bowl of rice...
(apparently, she luvs rice alot... cos she forgot that she ALSO wasted 2 wantans...)
pam discovered the true identiy of the mysterious "emogal", who's actually that cute little gal on the T-shirt...
(to pam: ur so freaking smart to have guessed it so fast!! props to u ya!!)
excerpts from remarks made by eric n zhihan (inside kolo mee shop):
eric: waaa!! our talented people all inside PnP bro~!!
fengyi (sry, i mean sirliang): u all 故意(purposely) put us together into PnP rite?
zhihan: no... it's destiny...
-strokes his long white beard-
and then, we all left n parted with full stomachs (not too sure abt fengyi) and ridden with holes from the crossfire of arrows during the meeting... haha
before i forget...PnP rocks!
juz got up from my all-time favourite afternoon nap n im blogging all the nonsense that's happened yesterday...
went for project new dawn meeting @ SBL... did the usual updating... bla bla bla...
then came the most awaited segment -- facilitation!!
i learnt (or did i?) 5 things abt working in a group...
1. Act interested when someone's bitching to u abt their sucky life
2. Being an @$$ to them by spewing vicious comments at them
3. Psychoing ppl such that there's no more differing opinions to ur own
4. Reaching a consensus by being swift n decisive
(ie. announce that u've reached a consensus before another weak-minded grpmate decides to voice out their dissatisfaction with the "consensus" after u've juz successfully forced ur opinion on the previous one)
5. Last but not least, forget wat's the 5th thing that ur supposed to take back with u after the session.
so wat i found out during that session were:
- zhihan is going stockholm for NOC after this YEP and he's going to graduate together with his sis(s)
*boring ya? now something more interesting*
- there're ppl out there who (actually) think that pam is hot
(to pam: i think sirliang coulda been one of "them"... refer to "does this look familiar to u~?")
after which, we went for KOLO MEE along Killiney Road...
fengyi wasted half a bowl of rice...
(apparently, she luvs rice alot... cos she forgot that she ALSO wasted 2 wantans...)
pam discovered the true identiy of the mysterious "emogal", who's actually that cute little gal on the T-shirt...
(to pam: ur so freaking smart to have guessed it so fast!! props to u ya!!)
excerpts from remarks made by eric n zhihan (inside kolo mee shop):
eric: waaa!! our talented people all inside PnP bro~!!
fengyi (sry, i mean sirliang): u all 故意(purposely) put us together into PnP rite?
zhihan: no... it's destiny...
-strokes his long white beard-
and then, we all left n parted with full stomachs (not too sure abt fengyi) and ridden with holes from the crossfire of arrows during the meeting... haha
before i forget...PnP rocks!
Saturday, March 8, 2008
oops! i did it again...
yes... i did it again... once again, i've allowed my inertia to get the better of me... totally gave clubbing a miss last nite... n now i have to take cover... for my frens are hunting me down...
im so sorry...dun hate me pls?... i shall not promise to make up to u guys cos that'll only be another chance for hatred... u can kill me but pls dun hate me : (
n the fren who actually likes me is turning against me too : (
my personal msg seems to be a curse... argh!!!
-hides back into that little dark corner where anything done, or not done for the matter, shall not cause ripples in other people's lives-
there, i shall exist, but not live... for living means leaving memories in others. one's life is what others remember of u... it's all about the impact u've made to the people around u. it's only when people remember u that u can proudly declare that u've lived ur life... otherwise, u've merely existed in this transient world...
wouldnt it be depressing if nobody notices u, remembers u, luvs u?
but wouldnt it be more depressing if u would only bring disappointment, hurt, n pain to people who actually notice u, remember u, luv u?
escapism? maybe... cowardice? perhaps... regrets? most definite...
oops... i did it again...
im so sorry...dun hate me pls?... i shall not promise to make up to u guys cos that'll only be another chance for hatred... u can kill me but pls dun hate me : (
n the fren who actually likes me is turning against me too : (
my personal msg seems to be a curse... argh!!!
-hides back into that little dark corner where anything done, or not done for the matter, shall not cause ripples in other people's lives-
there, i shall exist, but not live... for living means leaving memories in others. one's life is what others remember of u... it's all about the impact u've made to the people around u. it's only when people remember u that u can proudly declare that u've lived ur life... otherwise, u've merely existed in this transient world...
wouldnt it be depressing if nobody notices u, remembers u, luvs u?
but wouldnt it be more depressing if u would only bring disappointment, hurt, n pain to people who actually notice u, remember u, luv u?
escapism? maybe... cowardice? perhaps... regrets? most definite...
oops... i did it again...
Thursday, March 6, 2008
new theory~!!
i've realised something... i get more things done when im busy. the more commitments i have, the more work i complete... it actually pays to be engaged in all sorts of activities which eat up ur time!!
So here goes my new theory: if u r fighting to meet deadlines, go get involved in all sorts of activities which have got nothing to do with work!! (like project new dawn..., giving tuition, ktv, beach volleyball at sentosa, clubbing..., and visiting people at the hospital...)
also, if ppl can stop whining abt how much they've been lagging behind and get down to catching up, im sure we'll all have time for everything we need/wanna do!!
So here goes my new theory: if u r fighting to meet deadlines, go get involved in all sorts of activities which have got nothing to do with work!! (like project new dawn..., giving tuition, ktv, beach volleyball at sentosa, clubbing..., and visiting people at the hospital...)
also, if ppl can stop whining abt how much they've been lagging behind and get down to catching up, im sure we'll all have time for everything we need/wanna do!!
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