S stands for ......

S-C-A-N-D-A-L

recently, i feel that there are one too many scandals happening around me... and i'm totally enjoying poking fun at the victims... i'm so evil muahaHA~!! no wonder all my frens hate me T_T... but i do seriously think that the victims are enjoying being poked at as much as i enjoy poking them :P hope this doesnt turn out to be bad karma hehe

feeling the heat...

yay!! juz finished the highly irritating F2 lab report... i'll nv wanna see that ever again...

now to move on to other businesses which require my precious attention...

juz got bombed by emogal... wat a time to choose; juz rite after i'm drained from that darn report... well wat's impt's that it made her feel less disturbed... and i feel gd that i've been of help ^_^... luckily im gd with bombs... for now, i've stuck the safety pin back into the fuse so we're all safe... for now...

looks like everybody's feeling the heat, in all ways that phrase can be interpreted... hope everybody dun burn out so quickly... can't wait for this crazy sem to be over...

alrite... back to writing the proposal for ms acm......

HooooOOOOOOOOOO~~!!!!!!!!!!

back again...

yay!!! i'm back again!!!
respite from all the graphs n tables zzz....
got a "jiayou" and a :) === YAY!!!

commercial break over... now we return back to more graphs n tables zzz

i need to sleep~!!!

after walking down 5 flats worth of stairs....

my calves are aching...
my eyes are shutting...

but i cant let my body do as it pleases cos i got...

1 super duper irritating big a$$ report...
1 super duper irritating graded homework...

ok back to work now zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

choices...

once again, i've managed to pull off a disappearing (non-appearing, to be precise) act this afternoon. even i'm appalled by how big an a$$ i can be (or maybe, that's wat i really am... haizz)...

rejection is such a difficult thing... can someone teach me how? if the current situation persists, i can jolly well go hide inside a shell and never come out. this reminds me of one of the questions mr mint answered during the retreat @ ubin.

Q: What belongs to you but others use it more than u do?
A: Name

imo, it's time... or more accurately, personal space...

if i have a choice, i'd be a hermit. hide in a place separated from this world; where i shall not be affected by people around me; more imptly, where the people around me shall not be affected by my whims...

if i have a choice, i'd rather not be remembered, not to have left footprints in the memories of others (well, at least footprints ancient enough to be washed away by time); juz like footprints on a newly mopped floor, irksome and needing to be wiped off asap. it's sad, but it's easy...

is this being kind to others? i think PT has hit the nail on its head... this is merely egoism...

ahead lies two paths...
1.be a friend, do the right thing!
2. be a man (fiend), do the right thing!

i can choose to be a good friend, turning up at all gatherings/outings possible (which means turning up as long as i have the time, regardless of how i feel abt it)... or i can choose to be a man, doing wat i really feel like doing, and risk losing friends (this might seem exaggerated to some... but thats wat i feel)... notice how yanzhi is conveniently forgotten when it comes to arranging gatherings? am i the only one who remembers yanzhi is one of us too? haizz....

Disclaimer: not implying anything by dragging yanzhi into my ramblings; juz to put across my point in a more substantial manner

one word. courage.

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One sad case...

fresh_meat made me read this post juz now http://sometimesifart.blogspot.com/2008/01/my-last-post-as-nsf.html... after reading the post, i was overwhelmed by rage n sympathy, maybe bcos i've been thru NS, and have seen injustice n exploitation to some ppl. there was this sudden urge to make this known to as many people as possible...

so i sent the link to some of my guy frens, hoping to share such a sad experience, and to find people who feel the way that i feel...

but after getting feedback from some of them, im feeling even more pissed... cos i see feedback like "haha", "it's a good one", "very well-written", "but he sure good at blogging even without his sight"etc.

yes, it is very well-written, but are we missing the point here? wat happened to the "i feel for him", "hope he's living well now" and stuff like that? Can ppl really be so detached after reading such a sad depiction of one's NS life? Are ppl too callous or am i juz too emotional? Muz only unfortunate events happen to them or the ppl around them that they start to feel for and sympathise with the victim?

jaded n cynical...