wassup with the weather?

it's been really hot n humid lately. and it really gets on my nerves, especially when a film of perspiration is perpetually on the surface of my skin. the perspiration's supposed to evaporate to cool me down, but it seems to be stuck to my skin, as though it's reached steady-state conditions. given the heat transfer coefficients i would be able to tell u the thickness of this pesky film of perspiration....

anyway, i've promised to blog abt the rain. i hope it rains, like... now. hate it when the rain teases me. Dark gloomy skies with heavy cumulonimbus clouds stretching into the horizon, makes one wait for the rain to start pouring down. but it nv comes... how disappointing.

i think i luv the rain. not the wussy drizzle, but the torrential rain. luv the sound, luv the smell, luv the feeling of it beating on my skin. still remember when i was around 5 yrs old, when i was still living with my grandparents, i'd stare out of the windows and watch the rain pour down onto the traffic below, soaking in the sights and smell of a heavy downpour. and then enjoy the sight of the flock of birds flying around and making a ruckus like wat they do every evening when the season comes after the rain has subsided.

one of the latest memorable experience with the rain was during ATEC 3 years ago. i had to be a relay station for one mission. and i had to spend one whole nite out on a hill. it was quite an experience, especially when ur alone, somewhat, in the wilderness. the nite sky was great. getting 'stranded' in the wilderness nv felt so good, especially when im far away from all the people and vehicles. it's juz my rifle and my radioset and me-eeeee-eeeeee~!!! hahaha . anyway, it started to pour in the deep of the nite, and it only got heavier as time passed. it was quite uncomfortable initially, but u get to enjoy it when u know u cant hide from it haha. wat twisted logic this is, u might think. but it's true. hahaha. and soon it was daybreak and i managed to take shelter in a scout APC when it passed by my location.

this experience reaffirmed one of my guiding principles in life: if u cant do anything abt the situation ur in, might as well make the best out of it. ^^ i find it really pointless when ppl bitch and whine non-stop when they get stuck in a sticky situation they got no control over. well, i dun really mind the whining and the bitching, but pls be useful. a gd example would be our favourite Oyster~!! ^^

feel good...

despite struggling to finish revision for exams, i've decided to carry on with giving tuition today; not for the money but more of obligation and hoping that it would help my tutee with his mid year exams next week... and things seemed to have taken a turn for the better today, at least thats what it seemed lol. his maths seems to be improving after making him do questions after questions. and it felt gd... i think he feels it too ^^

more positive energy for the exams weeeeeeee~!!

howling wind~

blow wind blow~ it's so windy tonite, heralding the storm that follows the bright red nite sky... this reminds me of the day i finished my matlab exam 1 year back. it was my last paper for my second semester, and it was held at mpsh 5. i felt euphoria after finishing that paper cos, for 1, i knew i aced it the moment i handed it in, but more imptly, that symbolic turning in of that exam paper meant the start of a long long break till the next sem started... like tonite, i was greeted by a crazy storm when i walked out of that airconblasted hall. yet i felt high and no amount of rain could have dampened my spirit, well maybe a freak storm would, but that will nv happen in singapore, will it? lol

soooooo looking forward to 7 may weeeeeeee~!!!

well now, back to enjoying the symphony of nature~!!

i'll do a post abt rain next time...

oh, before i forget. sirliang is coming back to singapore with the rest of the YEP team weeeeeeeee~!!!

-ditches video-editting to sirliang and vanishes into thin air-
*poof*

OT...

forced to mug OT tonite cos zx wants to borrow wh's answers...so drained now... hopefully i'll have the energy to mug tmr, erm i mean later in the day lol

ok time to go fight the zee monster now... and maybe some lucid dreaming :P

btw, i failed to finish all the 2125 papers today zzz... i sux

-sighz-

woohoo~!! 2 more days to go~!!

weeeeeee~!! it's wednesday~!! 2 more days to the first paper. im feeling rejuvenated after slacking the whole of yesterday, and sleeping so early at 10, strictly speaking, 12. yesterday was a fiasco, perhaps for the cn 3124 revision i had on monday. im confident of finishing all the past yr papers for cn2125 today yay~!!

breakfast first, then off to school~!! weeeeeeee~!!

"u r at ur thing again"

being "at my thing" seems to have different effects on different people, more counts of bad than gd (with a count of 1 so far, i think) it seems. y? i shall attribute it to ppl being too caught up in their own issues that they're unable to extricate themselves to look at things in a different (brighter) light. wat's so bad abt putting things into a new perspective?

wassup with people being so obsessed with pessimism? i shall call it the drug of the new-century-Singapore. everyday, we see ppl worrying/lamenting/(insert all negative verbs here) - indulging in pessimism. and wassup with ppl telling others to look on the brighter side of life, when they cant practise wat they preach?

-sighz- hypocrites and cowards abound...

as the saying goes, "if u cant beat them, join them". maybe i should quit "doing my thing" and embrace pessimism... ppl might, then, listen to what i say... for if one's existence does not cause ripples in the lives of others, that existence is ethereal... then, living a life of a hermit definitely beats living among ppl...

~~free ur mind, and the rest will follow~~

6 days to go...

mugged for 6 hours in central library... managed to go thru 2 x cn3124 tutorials weeeee~!!

got home and played 2 games of dota, and 1 round of pudge to reward myself haha...

read 2 chapter on engineering professionalism after dinner weeeee~!! (make that 3 after this post... or even 4)

this is so weird, im not feeling the usual panick like in previous sems. in fact im looking forward to exams weeeee~!! muz be out of my mind haha

more mugging after tuition tmr!!

zhihan sent me a video
http://youtube.com/watch?v=DK1IqfDsd1E&feature=related

that guy looks like the devil incarnate in that outfit haha... and that voice~!!! omg... i cant even imagine hitting those notes... i want his voicebox~!!! gimme gimme~!! hahaha

it's not the end... everything's juz beginning...

yay~!! finally, here comes the final day of the gruelling 13 weeks of lectures, tutorials, assignments, homeworks, labs, projects, & tests... glad that everyone (to my knowledge) has managed to survive this ordeal....

(wh dun feel so sad about the test... it's only 5%... i'm sure the solution's somewhere in ur big brain...)

for those who dunno, wh n i had this stupid cn2125 30-minute test at 11am today... he claims that he butchered the test... n i think he's in the doldrums... so now ppl, show him some TLC~!!!

alrite, now i have 7 days left to the first exam paper... at least i get to celebrate tonite weeeeeee~!! then it's "full speed ahead" for these 7 days!!

See the light, wh~!! break free from the clutches of stress~!! u need to become the master of the hollow in u... dun let it consume u~!!

TLC, ppl~!! remember~!! haha

GET HIGH~!!!

damn it... im feeling so high now... cant even concentrate on my revision... the best part of it all is that i dun even know why i'm so high... damn...

i say high-ness is a contagious disease... and it can even spread electronically too... how scary...

maybe a cold shower would quench high-ness...

Happy~!!!

weeeeeeee~!!! got back my lappy from it-coop this afternoon. 5star service from it-coop. it din even take 1 day. sent lappy in at 1530 yesterday; got sms to collect at 1045 today. WOW~!!!

seems that the mainboard is fried. thats y it cant boot up, and freezes, and all that nonsense i've been putting up with for the past few weeks...

this looks like a gd sign for days to come. Full marks for tmr's test plox~!!! hahaha

my feel good song at the moment~!!

(I'm Yours - Jason Mraz)

pissed....

pissed.

lappy crashed on me AGAIN~!!! made me spend 3 hours getting it up and running...

that's it... looks like i have to make a trip down to service centre to teach it a lesson...

pissed..

lost 3 hrs worth of mugging ...

pissed...

despair...

my brain seems to be failing me in understanding/applying cn2116, which sucks. this's like the first time that my brain has totally failed me; and i totally find that feeling of helplessness repugnant... haizz

"thou shalt not succumb to this nonsense!" speaks the voice in my head.

and i've been feeling soreness/pins n needles down my left arm for days now... got a feeling it's the onset of stroke. ha

-goes back to making sense of cn2116 and stop being lackadaisical :P -

wat a failure...

gave tuition today... greeted by a 10/30 sec 3 maths common test paper... haizz
looks like i cant teach at all... i'm beginning to understand why young kids need tuition. i've nv believed in having tuition; and till now, my view has not changed. why do parents get tutors for their children? the reason is simple -- they need someone to sit down with the children to make them study for 2 hours a day. actually, they dun really need to spend hundreds of dollars each month for that, if all they need is to get someone to spend 2 hours with the child at the table.

it's an inherent problem, which a tutor can't render any assistance to. if the hundreds of dollars really have to be spent, i'd rather the parents spend it on a counsellor. something muz be done to change the mentality/attitude of the child to studying. i think that's the difference between a student excelling in sch and another which keeps committing the same mistakes over and over again. it's not entirely bcos the A student is smarter, in fact, it's more of the attitude the A student has towards studies. one who does not have the drive to learn/improve, will nv get better.

another major problem would be the lack of fundamentals. sadly, my tutee is being told by his teacher that BODMAS is not good... thus not drilled into him (wtf?!); and his mental calculation and manipulation of equations are simply atrocious. he even needs a calculator to do simple calculations like 7*9... haizz... i wonder what the schools are teaching the kids these days...

i think this is a sign from god for me to start mugging for my finals haha... seriously... alrite, enough of me lamenting. time to get back to my engineering professionalism textbooks :P

never fails to amaze...

found this link in pam's blog:
http://www.straitstimes.com/ST%2BForum/Story/STIStory_226394.html

what courage... simply admirable...

totally dig this song...

KARMA

remember my please donate to "save-my-lappy- fund msn nick? my lappy really needs salvation after it crashed on me this afternoon zzz... and i lost all my stuff on C: drive, including my genes n society essay (which i've painstakingly churned out till 3am last nite grrr), and my msn chatlog (*@#!.. hahaha), and my pirated programs (erm... ya that includes my warcraft... no more dota wootz!!), and my vast porn collection (jking...) , and my ProjecT NeW DawN stuff~!!! (-gasps-)

if u're wondering wat am i doing online now wif my lappy crashed, yes, i'm in the midst of restoring her former grace... hopefully she can hold out long enough till after the finals zzz (if not i'll juz ditch ya... u hear me?!! grrr)

looks like i better nt spout/type any nonsense cos it'll all come true... ("oooh"s of wonder from the background)

pay attention to what i say...

this is getting really creepy... juz when i said i missed those flying arrows... the project t-shirt design had to go thru some changes... not forgetting my remarks on christianity which appeared on someone's blog, and who can forget the april's fool fiasco....

better not shoot my mouth off during these crucial times...

did someone turn on the AC?

hmmm... havent been blogging for a while now... better get some trash out to stop gibby from bugging me... oops. anyway, juz finished THE presentation for eg2401 this afternoon... (YES~!! 1 down, 4 more to go... zzz) it was such a harrowing experience, maybe bcos of the formal attire, and the stupid timer going off... at least it's all over now. time to get back to my genes n soc essay which i've put off for days... i planned to churn out my first draft last sunday, which failed; then this tuesday, which failed too, and now tonite, which, as depressing as it may sound, WILL fail too haha... (im so dependent on deadlines haizz...) btw, the deadline for the essay is this friday ... can't really ask for divine intervention since i believe it has happened too many times already, gotta save it for a rainy day ya?

anyway, it's the second last week to reading week. everybody's busy preparing for the finals. by rite, i should be doing the same. however, someone seemed to have turned on the AC, cos i cant feel the heat at all.. (zomg, im so screwed) i attribute it to the stupid projects, n labs, n presentation. it's been a hell of a semester... haha... and not forgetting the break from Project New Dawn. i think im suffering from it's withdrawal symptoms... kinda missed those flying arrows (from zhihan n jackie n fundraising), spams... i mean mass emails (mainly from fundraising again!! haha), n churning out posters late into the nite (more of waiting for sirliang n fengyi to cough out the content, while i give them electronic moral support... haha)

i feel so useless... cant seem to switch my focus back to my work... juz waiting for everything to click back into place. think that's y i dun commit too much... cos i know i wun be able to hold back if i take the plunge. (zomg, now i really feel like a loser.. ha) but then again, everytime i look at bimbang, it seems that im looking at my own reflection; constantly reminding myself to be more assertive so as not to live with too many regrets... i believe i've already had too many regrets (sry bimbang, no offence meant)... and i better get back to my essay before it becomes my next regret... (actually it's more of me becoming too poignant and sian to do any work... ha) (im so gd at giving excuses... haizz)

till next time...

(if u r having a hard time following wat i've written, it's bcos my mind is full of random, and, maybe, not-so-random thoughts... i think that explains the white hair haha)

(and if u catch me on msn, pls remind me to do my work... juz have to scare me by telling me how near the exams are... thanks alot!!)

oh... and i still got the YEP handbook to settle zzz... (eric!! ur writeup!! haha)
i better click the "publish post" button now to stop this electronic pollution haha... the longer i stay on this screen the more rubbish comes out haha

and kudos to u for managing to survive all my crap to make it here (the end)~!! haha

thai music...

went to support sirliang for his thai music performance @ yong siew toh orchestra hall this evening together with aravin, mehraj, gibson, fengyi, n wenhao. the music was splendid, n so was the "gay" dance... could see that the students performing deeply enjoyed it...

it's been a long time since i performed music; n watching that performance flooded me with the urge to perform again... missed those long practises, routine warmups, indispensable sectionals, n evanescent 6-pack. haha. missed those lovely ppl who sang together, the tempestuous (i mean... dedicated n passionate) music director, ms lim. missed putting on the attire, lacing up the black leather shoes, waiting in the backstage, walking into the flood lights, standing my ground, waiting for the time to perform...

wat a dramatic week...

this whole week was like a rollercoaster... if i wasnt involved, i'd thought it came right out of an overdue drama serial... here's one of the classic scenes... it involves our dearest Laotian stallholder...

yesterday was april's fool, and a prank was made by gibson on some of our Project New Dawn teammates. He told them that i was leaving the team due to some personal issues. Some bought it, which i'm thankful for, some did not, which doesnt come as a surprise even though it made me feel a tinge of sadness... anyway, i told gibson that it'd have been a more successful prank if the one leaving the team was sirliang...

and guess wat! sirliang might really be leaving the team after all... he's going to have an interview call from US for an internship at SILICON VALLEY 2330 today, 2nd of April. however, this internship would span from 11 May to 3 Aug... till now, the call hasnt come...

would he choose to leave for a once in a lifetime opportunity at silicon valley? or would sirliang choose to be with his newfound frens?

this all seems like a really gd april's fool joke gone bad... haizz

stay tuned for another exciting episode of "Project New Dawn - Ties That Bind"...

if he really leaves, i'll make a tribute video to our favourite Laotian stallholder... yes...

burning...

a note to april's fool-ers (u know who u r, dun worry ur not alone, take note of the plural form) :

i can feel the fire getting bigger... oooh it's getting hot in here... think it's time to stop adding fuel to it and let it burn out by itself.. before it razes everything to the ground... the vortex created by the fire dragged me to its edge... so scary...

time to do gd deeds to accumulate more gd karma...

humans are really scary.