S stands for ......

S-C-A-N-D-A-L

recently, i feel that there are one too many scandals happening around me... and i'm totally enjoying poking fun at the victims... i'm so evil muahaHA~!! no wonder all my frens hate me T_T... but i do seriously think that the victims are enjoying being poked at as much as i enjoy poking them :P hope this doesnt turn out to be bad karma hehe

feeling the heat...

yay!! juz finished the highly irritating F2 lab report... i'll nv wanna see that ever again...

now to move on to other businesses which require my precious attention...

juz got bombed by emogal... wat a time to choose; juz rite after i'm drained from that darn report... well wat's impt's that it made her feel less disturbed... and i feel gd that i've been of help ^_^... luckily im gd with bombs... for now, i've stuck the safety pin back into the fuse so we're all safe... for now...

looks like everybody's feeling the heat, in all ways that phrase can be interpreted... hope everybody dun burn out so quickly... can't wait for this crazy sem to be over...

alrite... back to writing the proposal for ms acm......

HooooOOOOOOOOOO~~!!!!!!!!!!

back again...

yay!!! i'm back again!!!
respite from all the graphs n tables zzz....
got a "jiayou" and a :) === YAY!!!

commercial break over... now we return back to more graphs n tables zzz

i need to sleep~!!!

after walking down 5 flats worth of stairs....

my calves are aching...
my eyes are shutting...

but i cant let my body do as it pleases cos i got...

1 super duper irritating big a$$ report...
1 super duper irritating graded homework...

ok back to work now zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

choices...

once again, i've managed to pull off a disappearing (non-appearing, to be precise) act this afternoon. even i'm appalled by how big an a$$ i can be (or maybe, that's wat i really am... haizz)...

rejection is such a difficult thing... can someone teach me how? if the current situation persists, i can jolly well go hide inside a shell and never come out. this reminds me of one of the questions mr mint answered during the retreat @ ubin.

Q: What belongs to you but others use it more than u do?
A: Name

imo, it's time... or more accurately, personal space...

if i have a choice, i'd be a hermit. hide in a place separated from this world; where i shall not be affected by people around me; more imptly, where the people around me shall not be affected by my whims...

if i have a choice, i'd rather not be remembered, not to have left footprints in the memories of others (well, at least footprints ancient enough to be washed away by time); juz like footprints on a newly mopped floor, irksome and needing to be wiped off asap. it's sad, but it's easy...

is this being kind to others? i think PT has hit the nail on its head... this is merely egoism...

ahead lies two paths...
1.be a friend, do the right thing!
2. be a man (fiend), do the right thing!

i can choose to be a good friend, turning up at all gatherings/outings possible (which means turning up as long as i have the time, regardless of how i feel abt it)... or i can choose to be a man, doing wat i really feel like doing, and risk losing friends (this might seem exaggerated to some... but thats wat i feel)... notice how yanzhi is conveniently forgotten when it comes to arranging gatherings? am i the only one who remembers yanzhi is one of us too? haizz....

Disclaimer: not implying anything by dragging yanzhi into my ramblings; juz to put across my point in a more substantial manner

one word. courage.

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One sad case...

fresh_meat made me read this post juz now http://sometimesifart.blogspot.com/2008/01/my-last-post-as-nsf.html... after reading the post, i was overwhelmed by rage n sympathy, maybe bcos i've been thru NS, and have seen injustice n exploitation to some ppl. there was this sudden urge to make this known to as many people as possible...

so i sent the link to some of my guy frens, hoping to share such a sad experience, and to find people who feel the way that i feel...

but after getting feedback from some of them, im feeling even more pissed... cos i see feedback like "haha", "it's a good one", "very well-written", "but he sure good at blogging even without his sight"etc.

yes, it is very well-written, but are we missing the point here? wat happened to the "i feel for him", "hope he's living well now" and stuff like that? Can ppl really be so detached after reading such a sad depiction of one's NS life? Are ppl too callous or am i juz too emotional? Muz only unfortunate events happen to them or the ppl around them that they start to feel for and sympathise with the victim?

jaded n cynical...

finally got some time to blog about sunday's meeting...

YaY!!! its week 8!! = no lab on tuesday!! and i juz gave 2 hours of lecture + 1 hr tutorial a miss this afternoon to get my dad out of jail, oops i mean hospital... haha... that'll bring my record to 6 consecutive hrs of genes n soc missed hahaha...


juz got up from my all-time favourite afternoon nap n im blogging all the nonsense that's happened yesterday...


went for project new dawn meeting @ SBL... did the usual updating... bla bla bla...
then came the most awaited segment -- facilitation!!
i learnt (or did i?) 5 things abt working in a group...


1. Act interested when someone's bitching to u abt their sucky life


2. Being an @$$ to them by spewing vicious comments at them


3. Psychoing ppl such that there's no more differing opinions to ur own


4. Reaching a consensus by being swift n decisive
(ie. announce that u've reached a consensus before another weak-minded grpmate decides to voice out their dissatisfaction with the "consensus" after u've juz successfully forced ur opinion on the previous one)


5. Last but not least, forget wat's the 5th thing that ur supposed to take back with u after the session.


so wat i found out during that session were:

- zhihan is going stockholm for NOC after this YEP and he's going to graduate together with his sis(s)

*boring ya? now something more interesting*


- there're ppl out there who (actually) think that pam is hot
(to pam: i think sirliang coulda been one of "them"... refer to "does this look familiar to u~?")

after which, we went for KOLO MEE along Killiney Road...
fengyi wasted half a bowl of rice...
(apparently, she luvs rice alot... cos she forgot that she ALSO wasted 2 wantans...)
pam discovered the true identiy of the mysterious "emogal", who's actually that cute little gal on the T-shirt...
(to pam: ur so freaking smart to have guessed it so fast!! props to u ya!!)

excerpts from remarks made by eric n zhihan (inside kolo mee shop):

eric: waaa!! our talented people all inside PnP bro~!!
fengyi (sry, i mean sirliang): u all 故意(purposely) put us together into PnP rite?
zhihan: no... it's destiny...
-strokes his long white beard-

and then, we all left n parted with full stomachs (not too sure abt fengyi) and ridden with holes from the crossfire of arrows during the meeting... haha

before i forget...PnP rocks!

oops! i did it again...

yes... i did it again... once again, i've allowed my inertia to get the better of me... totally gave clubbing a miss last nite... n now i have to take cover... for my frens are hunting me down...

im so sorry...dun hate me pls?... i shall not promise to make up to u guys cos that'll only be another chance for hatred... u can kill me but pls dun hate me : (

n the fren who actually likes me is turning against me too : (
my personal msg seems to be a curse... argh!!!

-hides back into that little dark corner where anything done, or not done for the matter, shall not cause ripples in other people's lives-

there, i shall exist, but not live... for living means leaving memories in others. one's life is what others remember of u... it's all about the impact u've made to the people around u. it's only when people remember u that u can proudly declare that u've lived ur life... otherwise, u've merely existed in this transient world...

wouldnt it be depressing if nobody notices u, remembers u, luvs u?

but wouldnt it be more depressing if u would only bring disappointment, hurt, n pain to people who actually notice u, remember u, luv u?

escapism? maybe... cowardice? perhaps... regrets? most definite...

oops... i did it again...

new theory~!!

i've realised something... i get more things done when im busy. the more commitments i have, the more work i complete... it actually pays to be engaged in all sorts of activities which eat up ur time!!

So here goes my new theory: if u r fighting to meet deadlines, go get involved in all sorts of activities which have got nothing to do with work!! (like project new dawn..., giving tuition, ktv, beach volleyball at sentosa, clubbing..., and visiting people at the hospital...)

also, if ppl can stop whining abt how much they've been lagging behind and get down to catching up, im sure we'll all have time for everything we need/wanna do!!

trying to change my personal msg...

i dun have any enemies ( i think...) but all my friends hate me... i shall start to change that from today onwards...

starting by:
not letting others feel that i'm building my happiness on their sorrows...
not poking fun at emogal...
not being so wishy-washy...
not being a wimp...

maybe i can start by confirming if im going clubbing on friday zzz

:(

Does this look familiar to u~?

was chatting with sirliang on msn this evening and he said he knows some vietnamese phrases which he picked up from the people in Laos...

here goes...

X00M says:
just like hello
X00M says:
byebye
X00M says:
u r beautiful
X00M says:
thank u
X00M says:
how much

does this chain of phrases remind u of something? hahaha

unbelievable!! Sirliang seems to know anything that u can throw at him... thai, laotian, vietnamese, japanese (almost non-existent... but still worth the mention haha)

-gasps-... wat abt bahasa indonesia?!!

Emptiness~~

How does it feel to be empty? and how does it feel to be full?

tried talking to my empty cup but it replied me with silence...

tried talking to it again after filling it with water...
it replied!!
yes!!
but what i got was my own reflection :(

that's emptiness i guess...

Do u feel wat i feel, or wat i dun feel for the matter?

Maybe u dun, cos u wun see ur reflection on me...

is that it?

woohoo!! another lame midterm test!! i'm so glad i din really mug for them hahaha... gotta thank the heavens for watching over me. now i feel so light that i can virtually fly. gd luck to whoever's still struggling (oops, i mean striving hard) for their midterms.

Lamest paper ever~!!

juz did the lamest midterm paper ever this morning... it was more like a tutorial set than a test zzz... now everybody's gonna get full marks~!! should i be happy or sad? well, at least it's only 10 percent...

hoping tmr's test comes with solution outlines too hahaha~!! lucky stars, shine on me!! can't wait for tuesday to end...

All in a day's work...

Alrite... let's see what i've done so far...

After blogging in this morning's entry, i started to put my mind to work... managed to clear 1 assignment YAY... revised cn3124 double YAY!... n slept thru most part of the afternoon booooooo...

enough abt me... let's see what interesting conversations i had with my YEP frens!!

excerpts from my various conversations:

Context - Gibson was asking me if i 'm going to watch Angela at Bugis Junction...

V I C S K Y -:
i'll juz experience it vicariously thru ur blog ya?
- gibson™ 2013:
experience wat?
V I C S K Y -:
angela lor haha
- gibson™ 2013:
it's diff
- gibson™ 2013:
it's like when ur nose is itchy
- gibson™ 2013:
u dun dig
- gibson™ 2013:
instead u ask others to dig
- gibson™ 2013:
then u juz see others dig
- gibson™ 2013:
whre got the shiok feeling

Check this out too:

V I C S K Y - let slip the dogs of war~!!! says:
oh no!!! the dri-fit samples are with u rite?
X00M says:
with fengyi
X00M says:
passed to her sis
X00M says:
they look about the same
X00M says:
but her sis more chio
X00M says:
haha

Fengyi, dun get jealous... u're not forgotten hehe

(some time later... from the same conversation)


X00M says:
i where got buaya
X00M says:
haha
X00M says:
aiyah
X00M says:
i think her sis chioer cos she can dress la
X00M says:
if fengyi can dress up
X00M says:
confirm better

Feeling better now? U r the chioest!!

What's new... haizz

today's saturday, not any other saturday, but the saturday before sch term starts again. and guess what? i've only got today to finish up all my revision n homework n assignments cos tmr is burnt!!! once again, i've managed to add stress to my life unnecessarily.... how 犯贱 can i get? haizz...

but ironically, i think i'm addicted to stress. stress, to me, is like drugs to a drug addict. stress pumps adrenaline through my body, invigorating my perennially relaxed self, giving me energy to do what i should have done ages ago. at the same time, stress gets me high, releasing me from my monotonous life.

so why get those useless n expensive drugs? GET STRESSED!! it's free, and easily available.

Here are the 7 easy steps to getting stressed:

1. Keep a list of things u have to do (make sure they are due at most a few days apart, anything that falls beyond that should go on another list in a week's time)
2. Stick it on ur wall
3. Take note of the deadlines of the list of things
4. (crucial step!!) Do not look at the list!!! (yes, u got me right, DO NOT look at it)
5. Go along with ur daily life (until u've almost forgotten what's on the list but still remember the rough deadlines)
6. Now's the time to look back at ur wonderful list
7. GET STRESSED~!!! (relish the feeling of adrenaline rushing through ur body!!)

easy, isnt it? go give it a try. i muz warn, however, that this is not for the faint-hearted. risk of heart palpitation and psychological breakdown is very real!! for more enquiries, u can easily contact me on msn, and help me get stressed by wasting my time on u!!!
(well, its not really wasted bcos i get to get a booster shot of adrenaline hahaha)
(maybe i'll do a post on what is the meaning of 'waste' in my next post)

see how we can help each other get high by juz talking to each other?

so why wait? become a fan of STRESS today!