what's worse?

doing nothing to help when u see a fren in need

or

seeing a fren in need, but nothing u can do to help?

life's one serious joke...

random thoughts...

it sux being me.

hardly anybody understands me, or catch wat im trying to say. maybe i should stop using double entendre. it sux when ppl dun catch wat u say, and that's why i hardly talk... cos it's harsh when ppl juz dun click with u. at least i try... sometimes.

i think im sick.

while ppl luv to get a piece of the action, i prefer to stand along the sidelines watching the action. i luv to observe; it's so interesting. how ppl interact with each other, laugh at each others' jokes, talking cock. but wat's more interesting to observe is the ppl who are on the sidelines as well, observing how they react to the action. it's so fascinating!!

i got a bad feeling abt this trip...

well i got bad feelings for a lot of stuff. but it's more scary in recent times, when all my bad feelings have manifested in one form or another. i pray that all goes well for project new dawn.

im feeling a tinge of sadness.

saw a super emo (at least thats wat i feel) post on someone's blog. the last section was really saddening. coupled with that kinda emo music playing in the background. i almost felt like crying... similar experience to reading that post abt the nsf who got mistreated.

sighz...

i think i have a weak heart, for being a such a stoic... for being in denial of wat i really feel... (wat a wimp! hahahahahahaha)

double sighz...

i should juz jump off the building and end my life now... (juz joking lol)

(crap... after reading thru this post, i realised it's still got so much of 话中有话. damn it.)

ingenuity

The Square Root of 3

I fear that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all thats good and right
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign
I wish instead that I were a nine

For nine could solve this evil trick
With just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun
As 1.7321
Such is my reality
The sad irrationality

But lark! What is this I see?
Another square root of a three

Has quietly come waltzing by
Together now we multiply
And form a number we prefer
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our moral bonds
And with a wave from our magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
And love for me has been renewed

here we are again...

less than 11 hours' time... i'll be set free... free from the torment of exams and grades. but i dun feel great, at all... no assignments, no homework, no tutorial, no stress... ahhh! cant bear to bid stress farewell... *sobz*

anyway, this paper at the start of the new day will be my only hope for an A... hope i dun screw it up... daniu kept giving me hopes of a cap 4+ this sem, which i seriously pray for too... it seems almost achievable, that is if others screw up more than me hahaha. let me see... A A- B+ B+ B+ B would do the trick... ah! i muz be dreaming hahah. maybe cap 4+ would come when i dun slack, play games on weekdays, lazing the nites away, propagating scandals (*oops) haha.

i always tell others not to leave a backdoor when attempting a task so that they will have more fighting spirit knowing that there's no way they can back off into their own comfort zone. but i've always been guilty of it, (well maybe not in dota, where fortune favours the bold, and a thin line separates bold from bodoh... but that's another story). always thinking if i play less, slack less, i'd have gotten better grades... i cant even recall once when i had gone all out for academic stuff. looks like my trusty brain (well maybe not so trusty when it comes to memory work) can only see me this far...

i shall rise from the ashes like a phoenix reborn~!!

Daniu pls make sure i get to treat u~!! haha